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Why, oh why, am I always rushing with my responses to the weekly writing prompts I enjoy?

Why?  Because I need a break from everything life keeps dumping on my plate.

And that brings me right to the perfect prompt…Write about something you need a break from.

Wow!  Just something?  Only one thing?  Where do I start?

The best answer to my own question is boringly and very obviously…at the beginning.  Allow me to start with the everyday warfare that surrounds all the current political theatrics and how the fallout from the constant, mostly derisive, debates we’re witnessing have affected everyone.  No one seems to be able to move the hell past the drama put out by the media without engaging in some type of personal diatribe, either on social media or in everyday conversations.  People stand rigidly behind their opinions and chosen political party but I can’t really fault them for supporting who and what they believe in…it’s their constitutional right, and obligation.  Certainly, I don’t always agree but refuse to demonize anyone, at least in a public platform.  My opinions are most kept to myself but my lip looks like the aftermath of a prize fight because I bite it so much in an attempt to avoid constant arguments.

And, while I’m on my “need a break” soapbox, let me throw out family, work and other matters of my life at present.  Probably as volatile a situation as politics, all combined,  and we can all identify with those nagging thoughts that rattle your brain in the middle of the night, bringing up all of life’s, sometimes unpleasant, scenarios and the questions involved. 

  • Why are friends and family close one moment and in the background of your life the next?  For me personally, the absolute joy and magic of a family reunion a few years ago now seems nothing more than a distant memory. 
  • Why does the necessary evil of having to work become totally consuming yet you have no choice but to keep plugging-along, fearing not being able to work at all? 
  • Why does the enjoyment of participating in an organization slowly suck the life out people when the fundamental goal is to be an instrumental part of productive change and growth and leave positive footprints for those who will follow?  Trust me, I’m a total realist, fully aware that, within every group, personal agendas are tucked-away in individual notebooks.  Hey, that’s part of the game and, in itself, can be instrumental when people work together towards a common goal.  I know, I know…so much easier said..than done!

In short, I need a break from all of the above, but not an escape.  I need answers to those nagging thoughts, even a solution or two.  I need more to compartmentalize each issue and pull up my mental files, one at a time, rather than allowing all of them to hit me at once, like a session in Congress.

And so it goes…

 

workshop-button-1From Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop…Something I need a break from.

 

 

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Now and later…

Procrastinator.  Okay.  I’ll admit it.  Me…to a “T”!

It all starts with a simple choice between my working now on a given project and doing anything else: working on a different project, doing something fun or doing nothing at all. The decision to work on something is driven by how much I value accomplishing the project in that moment – what psychologists call its subjective value. And procrastination, in psychological terms, is what happens when the value of doing something else outweighs the value of working now.  It’s also the delay, or avoidance, of a task or a decision against my own intentions.  You know, waiting to mail a letter, respond to an email, organize paperwork, clean out closets…purge unneeded objects from your life.  And, the amount of time it took me to respond to this writing prompt.

Hey, I’m well aware that most people procrastinate but, we aren’t ALL procrastinators!  It may seem okay to put things off because that helps us avoid unpleasant tasks or decisions, at least in the short-term.  That, in itself, may not even seem like a major issue because, as we all know, eventually, most things still seem to get done.  Most.

I will readily admit that I shy away from tasks and decisions because they are unpleasant and I just don’t need the hassle.  When I am ready to face such situations, I’ll keep postponing what’s involved until I’m in the mood and have the energy levels ready for the task.  Sometimes, I just need to feel comfortable in order to function properly.  Very often, I work within a given level of stress and plunge, head-first, to get the damn job done!  The end result is always a good feeling of satisfaction, I must admit.  Taking a step back to gather all the negatives involved helps me to deal with an issue and that gives me the momentum to get through most of the tasks at hand.  In a twisted way, I kind of enjoy the adrenaline rush I get when when I race to get something finished before the deadline.

Now that I’ve given a brief overview on procrastination, I was supposed to write about something I’m putting off.  Something?  One thing?  Are you kidding me?  Okay, a brief list:  Corporate tax summary paperwork, business website revamping, club Bylaw review and updating, sending packages of “stuff” to my Florida family and putting all the Christmas paraphernalia away. 

Do not judge me, especially on that last one. 

 

 

workshop-button-1From Mama Kats Writer’s Workshop…Write about something you’re putting off.

Maybe I’m a procrastinator, maybe I’m not.  I’ll just have to put such thoughts aside and think about them on another day.

 

 

 

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The sign…

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Now and then, a writing prompt jumps off my screen and starts pushing my buttons for a response.  Possibly, that’s in line with my zodiac sign, even a personality flaw which pushes my need to elaborate beyond all reasonable boundaries.  Ah, yes, that’s a Virgo, feet planted firmly in some ideal that our immediate world has for us and the intense pressure on how we feel we should view ourselves.  My goal always tends to be perfect in all I do and boy, do I get frustrated when that isn’t possible.  I’d venture a guess that, for most of us, these life goals are essentially every damn thing you want to accomplish in life before passing on, the important stuff others remember you by when you are no longer around.  And, goals give you purpose and direction in guiding your life.

 

It’s said that Virgos have one of the best memories of all zodiac signs.  That…is a biggie, at least for me, having a mother who suffered with Alzheimer’s disease.  The fear of basically losing my mind to the warfare of dementia may be a guiding factor of my birth sign, a daily quest in not forgetting everything and everyone important in my life.  Often, at work, someone will make a snarky criticism on something they felt I should have remembered and pushes that above mentioned button.  Most of my positive personality traits immediately turn negative and I launch into an overly-analytical response in defense.  Any criticism brings forth frustration and my very short temper.  And, yes, I am an extreme nit-picker!  Don’t judge.

 

I do try to be supportive of the people in my life and will, at times, give all benefit of the doubt, always maintaining some critical reserve.  Just in case.  I can be very passive-aggressive if I’m not sure of someone rather than making it clear that I don’t care for them.   Do I go to an occasional extreme with attention to detail?  Hell, yes.  Way more than just occasional.  The thought of not doing something well, or under-performing, often stops me from doing that task at all, just to avoid being challenged…or corrected.  Sometimes, being needed too often causes me to not have enough time and I’m like the White Rabbit, running from here to there saying “Oh dear!  Oh dear! I shall be too late!”  Under all this zodiac madness is the drive to stay busy, focused and give everything I do great attention to detail and perfection. 

workshop-button-1From Mama Kat’s Writers Workshop…What does your birth sign say about you? Is it correct?  All in all, I’d say my birth sign is pretty much on-target.  I enjoy being somewhat of a master planner with attention to detail and pretty much have a reputation for taking responsibility and picking up slack in certain situations.  Mostly, I try to think of everything…because I’m so fearful of forgetting.

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