So long, Mr. Chip…

 

 

Huge drifts of snow blanketed the deck, the air outside was bitterly cold and the wind found a way to force its icy fingers into my home.   I shivered when I heard the voice on the kitchen radio advise parents to bundle-up the kids before sending them out to wait for the school bus.  An arctic freeze, he called it, not fit for man nor beast.  It was one of the coldest Northeast winters in several years.

 

Looking out the back door, I noticed little footprints that told me some creature managed to plod its way through the frozen tundra and seek shelter under the covered patio furniture.  Curious, I grabbed my jacket and headed out to look but didn’t get far.  Within seconds, a large tabby cat frantically ran by me, making his way through the snow like a downhill skier.  Peeking under the table, I saw that he had been making himself a comfy spot on one of the chairs, a safe place from the bitter weather and predators who roamed the nearby woods.

Quickly, I went back inside and gathered up blankets to provide more warmth for when he returned.  Within minutes, my hands were getting numb from the cold and I hurried to make a suitable bed, hoping that I hadn’t permanently scared the cat away.  I decided to leave a bowl of dry food, along with some water, during the daytime in case he returned, sure that he was somewhere watching, from a safe distance.

 

He was. 

 

Soon after I went back inside I looked out the window and saw him peeking at the top of the deck stairs; he made a bee-line under the table and I could see him almost inhaling the food that I set out.   A new friendship was made and our cautious deck-dweller was given the name of “Chip”, something we thought our spoiled inside cat, Dale, would appreciate.

Chip seemed to enjoy his surroundings and made it through the winter without incident.  As the snow melted, he would sit by the kitchen door and emit a Siamese-type cat meow.  He was chubby, his fur badly matted, and remained very skittish until…our inside cat came by the door.  I anticipated hissing, growling and other feline disagreements but Chip rubbed against the screen and just meowed while Dale gave a whatever-look and walked away. This activity went on daily and when Spring arrived, Dale managed to get outside and I feared the worst between the two males.  As I watched, the two acknowledged each other and headed off to explore the backyard kingdom.   Eventually, I managed to coax Chip inside on a stormy day and he and Dale became inseparable, both coming whenever they were called, eating, sleeping and begging at the dinner table…together.

This all came to pass back in 2009.   Today I sat and thought back to how we labeled Chip & Dale our Odd Couple; Dale, neat and clean,  much like Felix Unger and…Chip, rough around the edges, so like Oscar Madison.  As his confidence grew, I managed to give Chip a little grooming and he came to trust us all enough to sleep on the bed with enough room to escape if he felt threatened.   Life took a good turn for him and there were days that I swore he looked up at me with gratitude, allowing me to gently rub his head before he scooted away.

Earlier this year, Chip started losing weight.  At first my hubby thought it was because I had brushed so much of his matted fur away over time.  His appetite was normal, for a semi-feral cat still adapting to having regular meals that didn’t have a tail on them.   Chip seemed to be drinking more water than usual and we passed that off to our very hot summer this year.  In July, my daughter Jill set up an appointment with her Veterinarian and we managed to grab Chip and get him in a carrier for the trip.  Tests were run and showed that he was Diabetic; he returned home with a supply of insulin, syringes,  specialized cat food and a bad attitude.

Caring for a completely domesticated animal is relatively easy compared to cornering a terrified, moderately wild cat to administer injections twice daily.  At first it went smoothly but Chip became wise to the procedure and hid wherever he could.  No animal can understand a human trying to help them survive and I questioned his quality of life in feeling so stressed by my chasing him around the house.

Last week-end, Chip suffered a diabetic episode and with my daughter’s help, we got him through it, even managing to give him his insulin.  Early this past Monday morning, he took a turn for the worse with his best buddy Dale sitting by his side.  I decided not to let him suffer further. 

He’s back home with us now, under a big tree, resting with other members of our fur family.  Dale keeps looking under the bed and out the window,  he glances over at Chip’s feeding bowl but hasn’t gone near it to nibble.   I think, in some animal way, Dale is grieving for his friend.

So are we.

 

Dale (on the left) and Chip. The Odd (Cat) Couple.

 

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Hope…like a Butterfly

Hope departed when she died.  I often talk about it being the second time she left me…without saying good-bye.

Throughout her illness, I held out the hope that she might remember.  She rarely did.  Like a butterfly struggling to break free from its cocoon, her memories darted in and out of the sunlight, fought against the darkness of every night, and me.

Still, there was always that chance she might turn her head and recognize that I was part of her life.  Or had been, once.

It was overwhelming, at times a helpless feeling, as I stood  in the shadows of that familiar stranger wanting to become the missing piece of her puzzle of forgetfulness.  A puzzle left scattered, never to be completed.

Hope, for me, departed on June 29th, 2006, on the wings of a butterfly who never looked back, taking with it many desires and needs and dreams.  While hope can carry on its back an entire soul, lifting up sorrow and bringing back joy, it also takes many forms, depending on your perspective; wildly positive or very reserved, almost cautious. Most of us hope for better days, health, happiness or just some release of a heavy burden.  For me, it was the hope that my late mother would remember something beyond the walls of what Alzheimer’s allowed.  I kept hoping she would remember…me.  

 

When she passed away, that hope went along with her.   

 

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Hannah

 

Black, curly madness

waiting at the door,

when she became too excited,

she peed on the floor.

 

Unconditional love and licks

were her claim to fame.

The Festival of Lights

helped create her name.

 

Always ready for treats

and as sly as a fox,

except when she explored

the cat’s litter box.

 

A constant companion

for two little boys,

her bark would sound

with the tiniest noise.

 

With passing years

her sparkle faded,

her steps grew slower

her family waited.

 

One last hug,

loving touches, gentle words,

a final breath

is softly heard.

 

 

Good-bye,  sweet Hannah

When family lives miles apart, it’s so difficult to lend support when hurt comes knocking at their door.  Today was one of those times.  My oldest daughter and her family had to put their beloved dog Hannah to sleep.   Most of us who are animal lovers have been through this and I don’t have to detail how painful it is to say farewell to a special pet.  Aside from early morning phone calls and a sharing of tears, I had nothing else to offer.  Just this silly but heartfelt little poem.

I nicknamed Hannah “Banana Dog” because, for some odd reason, when I visited and called out that name she went absolutely bonkers, running to greet me and tearing through the house like a lunatic before calming down.   I also nicknamed her “CSE” for the times she pillaged the cat’s litter box.  Don’t expect me to explain, use your imagination.

My daughter and her husband got Hannah shortly after they moved to Florida, several years ago.  It was during the holidays, close to Hanukkah, and both were missing their New York families when they happened upon a little black ball of excitement and decided to take her home. 

They gave Hannah a wonderful life and she blessed them in return by being an exceptional dog. 

Except for the litter box fetish.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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