Why?

It was my intention to draft an incredible post this morning but, now, I sit here absolutely drained.  Words are stalling in my head and so I write, with great sadness.

Bad things happen to good people.  Conversely, they happen to bad people as well but I won’t go into that entire debate over the quality of humanity on any level of social acceptance and the issues that befall them.

This is about tragedy in my immediate world.  Incomprehensible, heartbreaking occurrences that strike innocent people and destroy families.

Over this past week-end here in New York, a family of seven were killed in a horrific car crash.  The driver wasn’t reported to have been distracted other than swerving into a guardrail, losing control and tumbling down a steep embankment.  A mother, children and two grandparents who had just arrived in this country…perished.

It’s so easy to offer silent prayers and feel sad inside for such loss but if you have a heart, the question of  why comes into play. 

At least it does for me.

Early today, I checked local news at home only to read that a local family of four, mother, father and two young daughters, perished this morning in a house fire.  Only the son escaped, was hospitalized and released to his grandparents a short while ago.  This one hit very close to home for the father was someone well-known to us at our business.  A local  Police Captain, he was a friend of the community, well-respected on so many levels and always giving of himself.  His two daughters attended high school here, one studying to become a nurse.

Again, all I can keep thinking is why?

Back when the earthquake and tsunami hit Japan, I wrote a blog post that asked God to look down on all who were suffering.  Today, I ask Him the same for these families and anyone else devastated from a tragedy.

And, for the lack of anything else to say in my prayers, I again ask Him…why?

 

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Through my looking glass…

 

 

The world is a looking glass and gives back to every man the reflection of his own face. –William M. Thackeray

 

 

 

 

My looking glass is a relection of someone reaching, always trying to grasp a fleeting moment or a challenge.

That image in the mirror doesn’t show what others see, or what they will never know about me.  My shortcomings or triumphs, my sorrows and joys, each lies hidden in that glass on the wall.

Passing years seem softened somehow, so much kinder than the opinion of a camera lens.  The smile is the same and the heart inside that mirror image beats with the same anticipation of long ago.   Each day, I’m reminded to look forward while there is still time.

 

I quickly glance into the glass and see my past resting in a corner… on a chair that is running out of room.

 

                                   

 

 

 

 

 

 Flicker of Inspiration Linkup #48: Mirror Image

                                                    

Take a good look, decide what you see. Write about that. I see two sparrows carrying coconuts; try not to let that influence you before you get started. Whatever you see, that’s your prompt. If you really really don’t think you see anything in particular, do a freewriting exercise; just type random words for ten or fifteen minutes or so. Share whatever you come up with, even if you start an actual story halfway through.

I started writing this post before I did some heavy meditation on ol’ Rorschach.  Actually, when the topic of this prompt was mentioned a few days ago, I was drawn to a basic, everyday mirror image and all that it entailed.  Thus, today’s post for the link-up.

Then, just before I was ready to hit “Publish” this morning, the Lightning Bug prompt image jumped out at me.  Well, not really.  It just conjured up an immediate thought of what it made me think about…”Hal” from 2001 A Space Odyssey

                                                                    

No, no…trust me, I did not drop any serious drugs during the 60’s.  In fact, my mind even jumped from outer space to the kitchen, reminding me of when a 13 pound Lobster tried climbing out of a huge pot of boiling water.

Wonder what Rorschach would think about all of this?

 

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What I do best is…

….love my alone time. 

Solitary, singular, isolated, throw out any definition of oneness that works and you will find me in between the letters. 

Smiling.

I’m an only child, you know.  Well, maybe you didn’t know that but I felt like sharing anyway.  Most, not all, only children aren’t lonely at all, in fact, we can do one thing better than anyone else.

What’s that?

Why, be alone, of course!

I miss so many things about being alone and I know you might wonder just what they are. 

Really, aren’t you curious?

Thought so. 

 

Well, here goes….10 things I miss about being ALONE! <drum roll>

1.  No one lecturing yelling at me, first thing in the morning and continuing again at night.

2.  My “stuff” where I want it without getting into a my-space-debate.

3.  Toilet seat always left down.  No cold porcelain greeting my posterior at 3 a.m. pee time. Not being greeted by just a cardboard roll where the toilet tissue once was. (Okay, I know this makes more than 10 but tell me you don’t miss not having to deal with this from your days of single-blissdom!)

4.  No soggy towels hanging in the  bathroom to dry off with after a shower.  (Now leaving bathroom-hell)

5.  No empty milk containers left in the fridge with the hope that the God of Milk will re-fill them at some point.

6.  Not having to cook a gourmet meal if all I want are Stella D’oro Swiss Fudge Cookies for dinner.  Or maybe nothing at all.

7.  Staying up all night watching movies without being reminded that I’ll just be a total, tired, cranky bitch in the morning.

8.  Burning scented candles everywhere without hearing sneezing and hacking complaints from another room.

9.  No one tampering with my car seat adjustment.  Rear and side view mirrors where I left each of them  and.. satellite radio left on Deep Tracks (not Opie & Anthony).  Plus, the steering wheel situated way down,  lap-low.  That’s how I roll.

10.  Getting up to walk outside  at 2 a.m., in my jammies,  to look at the full moon, maybe take some photos, and not seeing someone throw open a window to yell..“are you effing crazy?“. 

 

Yes I am.  Crazy for wanting to feel…lonely.

 

 

My response to one of Mama Kat’s Writing Prompts:  List the top 10 things you miss about being alone. (Inspired by The Little Hen House)

 

“I have to be alone very often. I’d be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That’s how I refuel.”
Audrey Hepburn

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