Twenty-two years

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Tragic events which leave deep emotional scars on those left behind tend to soften as time passes.  But not always.  Not even after these twenty-two years when, on that beautiful September morning, each of our lives were severely impacted by the willful, destructive ideology of radical Islamic extremists.

As I sat and watched the yearly ceremony in New York City, it seemed to hit harder than in previous years.  It was almost as if it had just taken place for the first time.  The incredible pain of watching innocent lives disappearing as two majestic icons collapsed into clouds of smoke and twisted metal was beyond overwhelming. 

My personal reaction might have been due to spending time at both the Freedom Tower and 9/11 Museum with my family.  The footprint of the North Tower had us walking on what I deemed sacred ground; there was a sense that many who had perished were watching over each visitor, perhaps looking for a familiar loved one, waiting to send some spiritual comfort to those left behind.

Today, I again watched, and listened, as names were read by family members.  Their tears gently fell as they spoke about the losses they suffered, each vowing to never forget.  Brave families, with such unimaginable voids in their lives, who took time to share sweet stories and express their love as they looked to the heavens.

Twenty-two years have passed; many more will follow.  Ceremonies and observances will continue.   One day, the September 11th tragedy will become a chapter in history for generations that follow.  That is, until those generations walk on hallowed ground and learn to never forget.

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Later is now…

Along with my first cup of coffee, daily stresses and worries set in; I think about them for a bit, a bit longer, and end up carrying them with me all day long. I do my best to let go of this baggage and focus on things positive, like family; grateful that they are here and reminders that they represent life’s beginnings and love which will never end.

My focus turns to doing whatever I can to help others and reap the heartwarming rewards of seeing their emotions; I remind myself to use the talents I have and not allow others to minimize my capabilities.

In all which surrounds me, memories are tucked away; things forgotten by my family, a few things they no longer need but things I hold on to. Shells gathered at a beach, pictures drawn by my children and grandchildren, a few drops of a perfume once worn by my mother.

So many pleasantries to think about but, for now, the overwhelming fear of the unknown, all that’s so uncertain and so much which needs to be done takes center stage in my mind; it may be too late to be more, to do more, in this lifetime.

I’ll get back to whatever my happy place is, later.

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Such a good boy…

“I believe cats to be spirits come to earth. A cat, I am sure, could walk on a cloud without coming through.” – Jules Verne

Jingles. He was a foster, given to our daughter in exchange for an armful of wiggly kittens she was caring for, all who had a much better chance of finding their forever homes. His planned stay in her home was to be temporary, until she could network and find him a loving family. Little did she know that he made the decision to stay as all the love he ever dreamed of already surrounded him.

Cats do that, you know? We don’t really choose them, it’s definitely the other way around, given their incredible power of moving into our lives and our hearts. They have an amazing sense of knowing where they belong, where they can find security and comfort. We tend to look at cats through dog-colored glasses, at times seeing them as distant when they don’t run to greet us with wagging tails and sloppy kisses. If we call their name, some rarely come running, choosing instead to just ignore us.

Not Jingles. He always responded, quickly rubbing himself against an available leg, purring like a motorboat. Being around family dogs never presented an issue for him as he would casually give them a nuzzle, never showing any fear, just a bit of cat love.

He went on his way early this morning, quietly drifting off into forever. In a sad way, we’re once again grateful that another of our family pets died peacefully in a place where they were so very much loved.


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