Let’s put honesty on the line here….who hasn’t yearned to turn back time a good number of years? And, the reasons why?
Now that I have you thinking, I’ll share a few of the thoughts that run through my head quite often.
I wish I could go back in time to when I was in school and not always be the outsider, longing to be part of one clique or another. Back to the joy and heartbreak of that first, tender, teen-aged romance when just a glimpse of him made my heart skip and stomach twinge with excitement. Back to unrealized dreams of success because I didn’t take school seriously.
I wish I could experience the joy of my children as babies and have a chance for a do-over, avoiding so many mistakes as their mother. Enjoy them more and be less focused on pushing them to grow up. And away.
I wish I could have learned so much more from those who left this earth, some too soon. Answers to questions that I neglected to ask while there was still time. Questions that remained unanswered and apologies that were never shared. Good-byes that came too late.
I wish I could learn not to let thoughts wake me in the middle of the night, pounding inside my head like an unwelcome visitor at my front door.
I wish I could be assured that this world, once I leave it behind, will be a better place for my children, grandchildren and all who follow. Fear of that unknown is almost paralyzing.
I wish I could enjoy the magnificent beauty of nature that surrounds me but…that takes more time than work allows. For now, I can only admire it through someone else’s vision.
And, sometimes I wish I could just hit fast-forward on time to see if in the end it’s all worth it!
